A modified line from Daniel Powter's song, Bad day..Where is the passion that I needed the most?
I always say that I love teaching, that is my passion. I want to teach this, that, that, and that.
But, when the time comes.. when I have a chance to teach.. the passion is just gone away.
Isn't this the moment that I have waited for long?
Do I have so much fear?
Why do I should be fear?
This thought that came:
They won't care anyway.. This effort would be a waste.
Why this kind of negative thought came?
Why can't I put a little faith on it?
Am I losing faith?
I worked too hard.. and I don't want my work hard to become waste.
I have to be strong.
God, now I know why You gave me this headache.
To make me stronger, reminding me not to rely on my strength but to Yours.
It's hard God.. really hard..